I'd like to think I'm the mess you'd wear with pride

Power within

I think a lot...

Sometimes, i think so much that my thoughts get all confused in other thoughts, which then get
confused into more thoughts and then, well, i just get all confused.  So, before that happens, I want to write this thought down.

So often, I regard myself as just a spec in this wonderous world.  However, tonight it occurred to me, that I am so much more, my purpose is so much greater than that, than just being a spec.  Every person I come in contact with, I can potentially change.  I have the ability to help, to change, to love, to give, to share.  I think of the people who I have met, and every person I have ever known has played a role on the person I have become, whether it be for better or for worse, subconsciously or consciously.

We are not just specs.  We are powerful.  We hold power in every word we speak, in the way we do it, in our actions and in the love we share.  We have the power to bring about a great change in others, we cannot waste it.  It is for this that we are here, to support one another in life's journey, to uplift.
 
I heard a woman once say that, 'the world needs sweet women, women strong enough to be sweet in this tough society."

The world needs men and women strong enough to be sweet, to rise above the hardness of the world and change it, to recognize the power they have to do good and help others, and then to utilize it.


no matter how many places we go, things we see and people we meet, we only end up longing for one thing.
                                                              Each other. 

If you forget me

I want you to know

one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine. 

Love

I was asked to speak today in church on eternal marriage and something as I was speaking just hit me so hard, that we must follow the example of the Savior's love.  We must give love as he gives love, unconditionally. No matter how hard it is, how hurt you were, how many trials get in your way...forget yourself and love.  Love is an unconditional thing, and cannot nor should it ever be conditionally given.  Just love.

John 15:13
"for greater love hath no man than this than that he lay down his life for a friend"  

Lay down your life, your selfishness and personal desires for your best friend, your spouse and find true joy.  



Walking

Tonight, after work, I was walking home and decided to take a detour.  So I took my shoes off and began to walk, from campus, to the ocean.

I don't know what it is but since coming back to hawaii, back home, I have felt this desire to never take it for granted, to not waste a second, to enjoy the beauty of it all.

As I was walking on the beach towards my house, I began to look at the stars and I just felt overwhelmed, overwhelmed with gratitude.  I do not know what I did to deserve this, who am I to be so blessed, but I am blessed.  I am living the most beautiful life.  I have a wonderful family, incredible friends, and peace of mind.   I know why I am here,  I find comfort in knowing that God is aware of me, in every moment of everyday and knowing that as long as I strive to do his will, he will place me where I need to be.

I am grateful.



I have come to a conclusion over the last 2 years and that is, that the Beatles were right, all we really do need is love.

When you think about it, our whole goal for this life and forever is to become like god, a god who loved us so much that he gave his only begotten son so that we could receive eternal life, a god who forgives us constantly, a god who in return only asks that we follow him, that we love him, and that we love one another.


"to love another is to see the face of god".

He asks us to love, so that we can become like him.  So that we can put aside ourselves, for once, and focus on that which is more important, on others.  So that we can learn to give and to share. He wants us to love so that we can grow, so that we can turn to another and trust in them, confide in them, give all of ourselves to them.  And so that we can in turn take that trust and love which has been given to us and cultivate it, strengthen it, allow it to grow.

I want that in my life,
I want to love another with all my heart.
I want to share with my best friend all my thoughts, feelings, fears,
all the things which bring me joy and all the things which bring me sadness,
I want to be able to give all my trust and all my care to him.  I want to love him.
I want to always put him first, and I want to see him smile everyday.  I want him to feel the love i have for him and the excitement i feel for him everyday.  I do not want to let a day pass by where he doesn't know how i feel. 

And I want to feel that in return.

Its something that we all want and something that we all deserve, to be loved and to love.


And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears.
And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
Get over your hill and see what you find there,
With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair