Walking

Tonight, after work, I was walking home and decided to take a detour.  So I took my shoes off and began to walk, from campus, to the ocean.

I don't know what it is but since coming back to hawaii, back home, I have felt this desire to never take it for granted, to not waste a second, to enjoy the beauty of it all.

As I was walking on the beach towards my house, I began to look at the stars and I just felt overwhelmed, overwhelmed with gratitude.  I do not know what I did to deserve this, who am I to be so blessed, but I am blessed.  I am living the most beautiful life.  I have a wonderful family, incredible friends, and peace of mind.   I know why I am here,  I find comfort in knowing that God is aware of me, in every moment of everyday and knowing that as long as I strive to do his will, he will place me where I need to be.

I am grateful.

I have come to a conclusion over the last 2 years and that is, that the Beatles were right, all we really do need is love.

When you think about it, our whole goal for this life and forever is to become like god, a god who loved us so much that he gave his only begotten son so that we could receive eternal life, a god who forgives us constantly, a god who in return only asks that we follow him, that we love him, and that we love one another.


"to love another is to see the face of god".

He asks us to love, so that we can become like him.  So that we can put aside ourselves, for once, and focus on that which is more important, on others.  So that we can learn to give and to share. He wants us to love so that we can grow, so that we can turn to another and trust in them, confide in them, give all of ourselves to them.  And so that we can in turn take that trust and love which has been given to us and cultivate it, strengthen it, allow it to grow.

I want that in my life,

I want to love another with all my heart.

I want to share with my best friend all my thoughts, feelings, fears,

all the things which bring me joy and all the things which bring me sadness,

I want to be able to give all my trust and all my care to him.  I want to love him.

I want to always put him first, and I want to see him smile everyday.  I want him to feel the love i have for him and the excitement i feel for him everyday.  I do not want to let a day pass by where he doesn't know how i feel. 

And I want to feel that in return.

Its something that we all want and something that we all deserve, to be loved and to love.

And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears.
And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
Get over your hill and see what you find there,
With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair

Just Obsessed

HOME

Im finally back home!  I made it to the island on Wednesday and all I can say is it feels like home.  As soon as I stepped off the plane and felt that humid air, I just knew, I never wanted to leave this place again.   Every time I leave the island and come back, I fall back in love with it even more.

Its something so sweet, the relationship I feel with Hawaii, its where I grew up, where I experienced so many of the youthful exploits, where I lost myself and then found myself again. Im so grateful to be here, experiencing this place again, to hear the ocean as I fall asleep, to feel the sun on my skin, to get pounded at pounders, to meet knew and beautiful people, to allow myself to enjoy the pure joy that comes from being home, because home is where I am.  I cant wait for the adventures which await me.