I'd like to think I'm the mess you'd wear with pride

Why Not?

"O my brethren, if ye could be healed by merely casting about your eyes that ye might be healed, would ye not behold quickly, or would ye rather harden your hearts in unbelief, and be slothful, that ye would not cast about your eyes, that ye might perish?"

Alma 33:21

why not look a little deeper, why not pray a little harder, search a little longer, and listen a little more?